I don't know why I'm crying like a little bitch right now. I think it's because this whole fucking week has been a gigantic DISASTER, everything I planned got fucked up, I'm lonely and hormonal and angry and I hate everything. I busted my asshole all week at work only to be told, oh nevermind, you did all of taht shit for NOTHING because corporate isn't coming anymore, I barely saw Richard and tonight was like the icing on the fucking cake for being angry about that. I don't know, I just really want to scream into a fucking pillow, or off of my rooftop, or in someone's fucking ears. I'm angry I'm angry I'm angry. And I don't know how to stop being angry.

I don't know what to do about these feelings of anger and disappointment anymore. Trying to suppress it just makes it worse.

I should learn to feel indifference about somethings instead of having opinions so powerful they push people away.

I have nothing to update about because my life is monotonous and bland. But in terms of love it is anything but. Yesterday was 5 months and you continue to amaze me each and every day that goes by. I love you.

Jordan, you're annoying me.

love those boys

Also, last night was awesome as per usual. We Are the Union, best guys, best band.

I just got into an argument with my mom about Gay marriage. I've never really talked to her about her brother being gay, or anything concerning gay people. I mean she knows I have plenty of gay friends and I love them all to death. But there was just something on the news about gay marriage and these two lesbians and their kids were being interviewed and she just got SO hateful out of nowhere! I was like, what the fuck is going on? What are you talking about???

She kept saying shit about the bible, and how it's wrong and blah blah blah. And I was like bitch, you don't even go to church! Stop trying to be a Christian, you're just being a hypocrite. It infuriated me that she could think a book that was written 1,000 years ago is still applicable today. Yeah, I believe in God and Jesus Christ, and I ALSO believe that they love everyone, and everyone is equal. If Jesus was so discriminatory, I'm sure he wouldn't have hung out with lepers and whores, and treat everyone with respect. I don't get it. Everyone is so quick to hate people for their choices, and as long as it's not destructive to other people, and it's progression, leave them alone. Nobody comes at you for choosing who you bump uglies with, shit.

Anyways, point being, I think her hatred comes from the fact that her brother died of AIDS, and she blames it on him being gay. Even though he could have gotten it from a woman too, sometimes I want to slap some sense into her.