It deeply irritates me that I can't have a normal relationship with my mother. I have stopped trying to have any sort of emotional attachment to my dad years ago, I've been living with a stranger by all means in that sense. But my mom, who I have tried time and time again to connect with, to any fucking extent, still sees me as some kind of disappointment. Today I tried to tell her that I'm goign to a show with Matt tomorrow, instead of saying 'okay, have fun' she jumps down my throat about how I have to go to work the next day, and how I should just stay home and 'rest'. Bitch, I never do anything! I NEVER GO OUT. If you consider going to the movies every two weeks and being at the mall every fucking night (usually by myself) having a good time, something is seriously wrong with you. I'm sick of trying to even form solid sentences around this woman, it ALWAYS ENDS IN A FIGHT. I'm not 15 years old anymore, you can't tell me what to do, you can't make me stay inside every night of the week like it's a fucking school night, I'M NOT IN SCHOOL. I'm fucking shaking I'm so angry everything makes me so fucking angry, I just can't take it anymore. I just have to get out of here. Fuck my life.
I've done nothing my entire goddamn useless life but listen to everything she says and do everything she wants. I'm going to be 24 next month and I still do everything she wants me to do, I'm sick of it, I'm sick of her, and I'm sick of being a disappiontment. She can go fuck herself.
I live with two strangers now.
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