It seems I've been hit with a huge wave of depression lately. I feel like I have no friends and no family and all I have is Richard. Which is not true, obviously. I have friends that matter, they just don't live closeby. My family....well that's still non-existent but I've learned to get by without them. I have got to learn to depend on myself. I really, really do, for my own benefit. I feel a lot better now though, this town has done way too much of a number on me, the whole time I've been living here (my whole life). I need a vacation, I need a break and I need to suck it up and keep going to my shitty job that I hate until I have enough money to move out and get out of White Plains. It's time to ship up.