I feel like I'm losing two of my best friends. Whenever something really awesome happens to me, something shitty happens directly afterward. I guess it keeps things on an even keel. But it's fucking stupid. And it's not even my fault that these people are drifting away. One is a huuuuuge fucking flake and the other one who moved across the goddamn united states to california is acting like I'm dead for some reason and won't say a word to me. I don't know what I did or what I said or how I've 'acted' to make her not speak to me. But she just won't and I've been reaching out time and time again to be there for her and I just keep getting the cold shoulder. I'm tired of trying, I really miss these two people and it makes me really bummed to think that shit like this is ending but what else can I possibly do? I don't fucking know. People are stupid.

I'm glad I have a couple other best friends who have my back no matter fucking what. Word.